!*Natividad, Fatima Reina R.
im FhatZZz.
im lovin' my life as a student in MAPUA, (viva! we RULE & ROCK)!
im in LOVE with my FOLKS.AUGUSTINIANS '06.MY FAMILY.MY FRIENDS.MY M-A-S-K-U.
i *HEART* kenneth-kyla-ann!!.
i crave for *slEEp*!
for everything that i have-I GLORIFY GOD.
i love mapuans.mapuans.mapuans.mapuans.uber in love with them!.
i love math (yep, lovin' it now).
im patient. im a cry baby. im sensitive. im active.
i love my nephew&niece. yuan&sean. i love kids.
im fhatzzz & i'll always be.
i now HATE working out!.
&about
#1 a peaceful country! sna wla ng mag-hirap
#2 forever have good friends at my side.
#3 m-a-s-k-u forevr.
#4 keneth.ann.kyla(forevr frnshp)!
#5 **** **********!
#6 212 perfume.
#7 good health for my folks.
#8 get THIN. XOXOX!!
#9 write a book.
#10 more faith in GOD & long life for me.
#11 less bad words in my vocabulary.huhu.
#12 finish my degree with flying colors. i have to prove my worth.
It feels great being here, being able to write a blog entry after such a long time. I missed doing this. I get to write about how I feel about certain things anytime I want! Hehe. Anyway, it was a really busy week in school; we had a few long tests, and there were a few projects to be submitted. haha..
this morning, i saw ken agen @ the church...wheew..i oh so love him,haha!! theres something in him that make me soo...waah!! bsta!! im so hapi to see him again..--, Y HIM? WELL I DONT KNOW!!its something that im not capable of explaining..haha!!
last nyt i watched the muvi ol about love..eeky s it seems but im lovin ot so much!! i love those genre of muvi,,wee..it rminded of my first kiss ever..ampt.. it was not that good but still,,haha!!
i get so iritated sa mga taong walang sense of responsibility whether sa buhay ng mga tao around them or could possibly sa mga sarili nila. honestly speaking, i want to kick the faces of those pipol hu kips on pretending to be someone else..like pretending to be the prtitiest&coolest person hir on earth.. or someone hu fils lyk she's the million dollar baby..damn..wake up!! i mean if u r rich or prity u dont have to blabber it to the whole universe..
another thing..call me BORING but i rily do beliv dat u can have fun even if u dont smoke..drink or part of a frat.. i used to be so disappointed wid how the youth today acts today..
in a situation..
if u dont smoke-ur not in!
if ur single-ur not in!
if u go to library or a chapel-ur a jerk!
dis is da reality of life.. the youth today wants to fit in..-fashionable clothes..bucks of money..cool locks..wild parties..alcoholism..frat..chat..a coke figure..pasty-white-complexion..anti-virginity..!!
whattah..all these things are very SUPERFICIAL..
kapag namatay ka, hindi naman tatanungin ni GOD sau kung maputi ka ba or mayaman or matalino ka nung nabubuhay ka pa.. sa judgement day..its the soul(inside being) that matters most..
well then if u dont believe in GOD.. i fil so sori for u..tsk..
wee.. just missed doin this sort of writing..peeeeww!! things are slowly gettin better..well,, ive bin busy dis days tryin hard to get good grades,,well it seems that each day strikes a pimple in my face-stressed out!... but thats the beauty of life..u fall,,cry..be inspired..fooled around..hate urself..flunk the exams..lose hope&faith..then suddenly...ur happy agen..haah!! its true,,ayt??...dats how life works in me..haha!!
well...my lovelife is soooooooooooooooooooo complicated..at one point u declared to the whole world that u love him but suddenly..u wke up nxt day den realized that..*naaah..stupidity...GET A LIFE..u hate him alreaay..nyahaha!! mr.dee,,get a life...LOSER!!
next..my best boy bud turned out to be the worst one..naaah,,men..i dont understand him...he's so nice..fetched me...treat me ...im so clueless of wat he rily feels? dis cant be.. too bad..its only friendship dat i can offer..watevr!!
hmm.. ponder on this.. y do boys seem to be so addicted wid the idea of coolness that smoking,playing girl's heart&drinkin brings...damn..YOU GUYS SUCK!!
well, i declared a farewell to my augustinians feat. kosi&bang grouplist on my fone.. i have to be focus wid my craft dis days&save some moolah..im plannin to start a small business that will enable me to support my leisures&expenses in skul...haha!!! kippin mah fingers crosed!! though at tyms..itso temtin to use my fone..haha!!! cant stop the adixion to text..shooooot!!
its been months since i left high school... and now that i'm in college i have noticed that i have been smiling more often... but wat does a smile mean..? is it happiness?? or a stupid mask to cover up all the scars that was left behind....-solo's property..eheh!! la lang.. y is it so hard to move on.. its bin months since i moved hir in metro but i still get emotional evrytym i think of how i mis my comfort zone: our house..mybed..my pillows..m parents.. to top it all-my bestest buddies of all tym.. actually im surrounded wid good pipol in our skul..i also have my yfc family (thank GOD ther're hir).. well the loneliness occures everytym i check our website-augustine06.multiply.com...the pictures wearing their uniforms plus having a blast with each other's company..it hurts a lot.. the word is "jealousy".. in my case, my social life sucks.. i mean if ever il visit the mall, its all bcoz i have to but stuffs at the bukstore then go home aftrwards... well this is my world.. instead of roaming around the streets of manila or watch the latest flivk..id rather wash my clothes or take an early nap because im drop-dead-tired becuz of so many skul works..exams..etc..
..speaking of skul..well we alredy got our test booklet in chemistry..thank GOODNESS 60 out of 100..just right to pass..eheh..nyweiz, i just had my algebra long test this afternoon & i suck.. i wasnt able to answer the problem solving items..damn,,so hard to analyze,i fil so bad becus i rily studied my lssons yet i wasnt able to answer the questions correctly..well, i tried my best to control my tears...but its human nature that im really -iyakin- cant help it..=(..yah its just a test but its 10% of my grade this term..nah, dont wanna be a repeater..cant take it... so after class, i decided to attend our worship wid kat..i felt better..its GODS WILL..thanks to my ates & kuyas in YFC hu never failed to comfort me..=)...
...hir i go agen..thoughts of uncertainties starts to pile in my head agen..why industrial engineering? why mapua? why manila? why not go back to pampanga? why fall in love wid *mr.dee*..considering the fact that it just cant be 'us'.. what if...what if...what if... nah..this doesnt make any sense at all..
..before these things are just my concerns...new clothes..make up..go out wid my frens..my fone..my crushes & the complicated word spelled as L-O-V-E,,,my pimples..my hair..etc...things that are very superficial but now..im more concern on how can i pass my subjects...how can i manage my time in school.. my clothes w/c starts to pile up..my missin-syndrome.. how to manage my finances.. my allowance.. how can i touch other people's lives..how can i serve GOD... how can i make my FUTURE at its best view.. its a big surprise for me that little by little..im no longer self-centered person..im gettin better,,,still full of uncertainties..the wat if statements that buggin oround my head.. well i want to be happy..hehe..am i? shud i?
--watever--
well this is me..tryin to unravel the mysteries of growing up..i may be insecure but open to new experiences..i want to be ahead of everyone else..to be different without feeling left out..haha.. hopin il fil better soon..
its just that i miss my friends..actually my second family-named the augustinians..
- One desire Lyrics (lovin this song=),,Verse 1 you give it all for me my soul desire my everythingand all I am is devoted to you Verse 2How could I fail to see you are the love that rescued me and all I am is devoted to you Pre-Chorusand oh, how could I not be moved, Lord here with you So have your way in me, cause Lord there is just one thing that i will seekChorus this is my cry, my one desire Just to be where you are Lord now and forever it's more than a song, my one desire is to be with you, is to be with you, JesusBridge the one thing, the one thing I ask, is to be with you
house..=)
