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!*Natividad, Fatima Reina R.
im FhatZZz.
im lovin' my life as a student in MAPUA, (viva! we RULE & ROCK)!
im in LOVE with my FOLKS.AUGUSTINIANS '06.MY FAMILY.MY FRIENDS.MY M-A-S-K-U.
i *HEART* kenneth-kyla-ann!!.
i crave for *slEEp*!
for everything that i have-I GLORIFY GOD.
i love mapuans.mapuans.mapuans.mapuans.uber in love with them!.
i love math (yep, lovin' it now).
im patient. im a cry baby. im sensitive. im active.
i love my nephew&niece. yuan&sean. i love kids.
im fhatzzz & i'll always be.
i now HATE working out!.
&about
#1
a peaceful country! sna wla ng mag-hirap
#2
forever have good friends at my side.
#3 m-a-s-k-u forevr.
#4 keneth.ann.kyla(forevr frnshp)!
#5
**** **********!
#6 212 perfume.
#7 good health for my folks.
#8 get THIN. XOXOX!!
#9 write a book.
#10 more faith in GOD & long life for me.
#11 less bad words in my vocabulary.huhu.
#12 finish my degree with flying colors. i have to prove my worth.
abtpast
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byebye
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Wednesday, January 10, 2007 2:12 PM
for how many days, I tried to be happy and well off be contented on how things go on with my life.As a start of a new year for me, I decided to live life to the fullest and seize every moment. For countless times, I never failed to thank the LORD for everything that I have and had. The gratitude that I have because of my family who never failed to make me feel that I matter and that come what may they will always be there for me-I SAY THANK YOU. For my friends and colleagues back in high school whom I enjoyed the company most and met wonderful souls-I SAY THANK YOU. For the newly found friends now that I’m in college, who lifts me up when I’m about to quit, for the company and true essence of friendship-I SAY THANK YOU.For the material things that I take pleasure in to-I SAY THANK YOU. For the four souls to whom I shared my ups and downs, the souls who are always behind my back-I SAY THANK YOU. See, I got lots of reasons to thank for. I must say I am truly blessed. Nonetheless, my life has never become perfect though it is full of imperfections I am still happy with how it goes. I just pray for a long life for everyone and strength for me to go on living and touch other people’s life throughout my existence. I HUMBLY PRAY.Why am I writing all these things? Because I’m sad. Deeply wounded. Broken. And this is how I truly feel. I wanted to cry at the corner of this room but instead of doing so, I decided to start counting my blessings, acknowledge the good things that I posses and most especially...***reminisce how a certain person made me happy and feel prettiest at the most. I am doing this because 10 minutes ago, I woke up to my long sleep and realized that there will never be me and him. It is so sad; I thought hed be the one who will complete me. I thought hed stay. I thought hed love me TOO. It was just a thought. I knew it, he was born to be adored because of what he posses and I was one of those who adored him. But I was never born to be adored by HIM.Why is it when other parts of my life starts going okay the other one simply falls into shattered pieces?We are different in so many aspects but because of fate which brought us together, I felt I was complete even just for awhile. The times that I was with him are the best moments of my life. At least I was happy for awhile.This may be so shallow but this is the only way that I have to express the sadness. I feel so sorry for this feeling that I have.If only Im rich perhaps he’d love me too.
If only Im sexy perhaps we’ll look good together.
If only Im socially equipped perhaps he’d introduce me to his folks.
If only. Perhaps well be together.But Im just like this.Therefore, we cant be together.If you cant get someone out of your head maybe theyre supposed to be there.(kasinungalingan.)
I am still clueless why I fell in love so bad with you. They say when you love never expect for anything. For love is something sacred. Never judge nor expect. For in loving, you only give what you have willingly and no selfish acts behind must be take into consideration.
Maybe this calls for a forget-you-now scenario.
Past is past? Because I have to move on for me to see the light again and go back to my usual self. But… how can I go on with my life and look forward when my past is the ONLY thing I ever wanted-slash-prayed-slash-wished for in the future..?
Well, this is just one of the truths in life that are hard to accept but it made me see the beauty of life and that is getting strength from my tears and faith that in time I’ll be happy and complete.
I’ll be missing you.
YOU, who makes me laugh like no one else could.
LIFE GOES ON, PARE!
(malaram kang tlga..)
hold me now at 2:12 PM
