It was Sunday afternoon when ate Neri (bro’s wife) broke the news to us. My brother is planning to resign at his work after the election. He used to be a chief of staff of a congressman for three years now and this coming election his boss will run again for the same position and most likely he’ll win for the second time. Last month I went to my bro’s office in Makati and that’s where I met nico (his boss’ son) and that man was actually the main reason why my bro has been in a dilemma lately. That f*%#%$g man was the one who wants to get the position of my brother-soon. And what’s really bad with the whole scenario is that-the f*%#%$g man is not even capable of the position. You see my bro has been always the one who do the job, he’s simply deserving of that position. But in this world, it’s really a fact that you can’t get rid of this people who possess a crab mentality. These people think that my brother’s financial status right now is because of their father’s help. Big correction-kung ano man meron si kuya ay pinaghirapan niya. Own blood. Own cleverness. Own fret. Own labors.
Puta naman kase ang yayaman na nila, bakit sobrang sakim nila. Di bale sana kung capable sila pero they’re simply not, they’re even planning to do my brother as a dummy-meaning my brother will do all the work of a chief of staff but all the credits will go to that f%$#@%n spoiled brat son named nico.
Naiinis ako because we don’t deserve this. I use *we* because most likely the whole family is involve and affected with this problem. Naawa ako sa kuya ko (tears) because I know that he’s hurt. Behind his laughter is sadness at the rear. I know how worried he is-since the whole family is depending on him. Yah, my father and sister earns too but my brother’s help to us is really a big thing.
Siya lang talaga ang nakapagpagaan ng buhay namen financially. That’s why I really look up to him-he’s intelligent. A man of principle. Humble. Kaya nalulungkot ako with what he’s going through right now, I know how fragile-slash-emotional he is. Ako kasi yung female counterpart niya that’s why I know. See, he can’t even say it to us, pinadaan niya pa talaga sa wife niya eh. Kase maiiyak yun for sure.
I know in the coming days, things will most likely change. Less is more I think? I’m used to the life naman kung saan kailangan mag-tipid. I believe way lang ito for us para pukpokin ni GOD, maybe we did something na hindi niya nagustuhan or he’s just testing us how we’ll get through with this another storm in our lives. I’m very positive that things will certainly get better. We’ve been through a lot. Naranasan na namen mag-hati sa isang isda kung saan six ang mag-hahati. Naranasan na din namen ng walang sasakyan. Naransan na namen mag-tiis. So whatever happens I’m ready. Siguro it’s really high time na din for me to do something and support myself kahit papano. Who knows signing up as a student assistant is school will bring more opportunities for me. I know got to do something. I know.
I’ll be fine. I hope.
hold me now at 2:14 AM
