in love with you..

FATE

2007-04-26T02:00:00.000-07:00

*FATE*

the individual destiny or fortune of a person or thing; what happens to someone or something.

The supposed force, principle, or power that predetermines events.

The inevitable events predestined by this force.

A final result or consequence; an outcome.

Unfavorable destiny; doom.

-i know we are destined for each other-

i know.

-_-

come on fatz- CHEER UP

2007-04-25T01:17:00.000-07:00

wattah day.. school's crowded becuz of the upcoming freshies enrolling..time flies so fast..
*sigh, april 28, 2006*

humanities and conssti test..hay,..my head aches..parang ang dami kong gnawa..sana pumasa lhat..hay! i hate consti..ANG HIRAP!

first time..ofixialy this nag-cut class ako..sa CALCULUS pa! db?haha..im not in the mood and sir domingo sux for the past days..=( hindi ko maintindhan!!!!

REA, sori hindi na ako bmalik sa rum at sana pinasa mo ang aking assignment=)

in short im not in the mood.. im broke..im tired..i feel hot..in short im not in my best self now..

thanks to GOD wlang pasok sa mon and tues at least makaka-pag isip-isip ako.

ANNOUNCEMENTS:

Apol hapi bday (april28)-love u so much!!

Pae-mag pakain ka naman! stay hapi! hapi bday(april 27)

Dan Kevin-first best friend sa skul EVER! hapi bday!(april 28)

NOEL-thanks kc pumayag ka ng gawin yung tatlong plates ko sa drwing dont worry gagawan kita ng mga assignments mo!haha!

REA-sori hnd na ako bumalik!

i realized--

it was really fun chasing an illusion.

it gave me reasons to be happy even if it wasnt real.

but any chase surely has to end.

im just disappointed because when it did end,

i was left with nothing but a memory of something that

never existed.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------=(

trying to endure the feeling

2007-04-24T03:07:00.000-07:00

Cause I can't make you love me
if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the darkin these final hours
I will lay down my heart
And I'll feel the power
but you won'tNo, you won't

Cause I can't make you love me

if you don't

I'll close my eyes
then I won't see the love you don't feel
when you're holding me
Morning will come and I'll do what's right
just give me till then
to give up this fight
and I will give up this fight

*excerpt of I Can't Make You Love Me

written by Mike Reid and Allen Shamblin

as performed by Bonnie Raitt *

--im trying to keep myself busy with school stuffs..shit, i hate my drawing class! putek ang
hirap ng mga plates..hell, why do i have to suffer like this.. di ko naman major ang drafting
ah? ...

tom. is our test in humanities101 and consti.. hopefully maka-pasa..i just hate memorizing..=(

ung classmate ko sa drawing and philo class parang ewan,
transferee xa from up diliman 4th yr na xa bs math tpos lumipat pa xa ng school para mag engineering,,,
sayang yung efforts and time wla man na-credit sa mga subj nia.. nabanggit ko xa kc di ko xa feel.. argh! no choice monday to friday ko syang mkikita.=(

asar pa hindi pa hinahatid ni kua yung pang-business ko tpos ang init pa(natural summer neh fatima)haha..

im going nuts kc namen based dun sa source ko
*si love of my life*
lilipat na ng skul..
shit! the mere fact na iniimagine ko plang ay sobrang naiiyak na ako. di ko kaya..huhu! praning na nga talaga ako.. pero basta parang hindi ko kaya..=( naiinis ako kc parang sanay na ako dun sa idea na
he's always around to ruin my day
and i
simply LOVE THAT.

+i want to pick myself UP but i cant+

saturday nigh at concepcion tarlac

2007-04-23T03:10:00.000-07:00

* ciay's cuz&sibs
*bb. concepcion 1st runner up! proud of u xiay!
*la lng!
*pekto!haha!
*same color of hair neh? haha..
*mike&kenneth..ui close ah..haha!
*ciay-peace! dont kill me.haha!
*xiay and the ever supportive bf!

-damo xiay tiniis namen ang layo..inet and ol the stuffs just to see u!haha
love u!mua!

one sunday afternoon with my family

2007-04-23T02:51:00.000-07:00

*kalbo!kalbo! haha
*she's so pretty like the tita..haha!
*me and tatang..
*wacky mom!
*big tummy of my bro!

(waaah pinayagan na nia ako with my plan! shit i love my kua so much! sobra! yehey)
*sweet lovin!
*wasted pare..
*happy!
*sad!
*angry!

-haha..aus noh?-

*took by kiko..
*boxing!
*conversation*
kiko:
tati, stop cryinh..u deserve someone better.
fatz:
no, i rily love him..

-thats stupidity!haha-

*mad cow!haha
*i love u sean!

*watevr happens.. we'll always be a family*

things happen for a reason,i know.

through lagkitan and madness

2007-04-22T06:06:00.000-07:00

thanks for all the foolishness ...

for the trip&adventure...

you're the BEST!

love u pecs=)

letter to kuaaa

2007-04-19T18:00:00.000-07:00

tin..

hi kua mat..eku sabi ini in person so i decided through email namu..
game..

for the past months i've been attending the seminars of the PHARMANEX company regarding the business opportunities that they offer for young hopefuls like me. my highschool classmate kristine was the one who introduced this to me, she's now studying at ateneo.

i've been really waiting for this opportunity to come. i want to do network marketing like kristine. i known you'll say that i'm too young for this and i'm not even sure if this is a scam.
but i am assuring you that this company is authorized and well known around the world and a lot of students like kristine engaged with this network marketing and fortunately they are already earning. in terms of my time, this will not affect my studies. maybe you are wondering why i wanted to do this thing, for the longest time i've always wanted to be independent financially and i believe that with this i'll learn how to save and manage my own finances. who knows by next year i'll be the one who will pay for my tuition.

the business plan works like this, if in case you will allow and support me, i will become a distributor and start my own business. i will be train and recieve a percentage of the production that comes from the organization that i will develop, FOREVER. there will be additive continual commission. The business actually provides an unlimited upside potential without the overhead risk found in business.

the company supplies the products and pays each distributor directly and there are no accounting or warehousing requirements needed. this is a highly flexile self-directed work environement. the products were as follows..(Nu skin products, food supplements and biophotonic scanner.)

this is one of the fastest growing companies in marketing history.you can even search it on the net.

i really want this so bad.

now, i am need of your support. the capital is 13k (this includes the training, the products to sell and all the stuffs needed). by 5 months mabawi nala deni and i'll start recieving my monthly comission. i'm planning to sell my phone amounting 3k. if possible, can i barrow 10k from you. i am assuring you that after 5 months you'll get your money back. please trust me with this, after this one... i wont ask anything from you.
PROMISE.

i know this is not the right time for me to ask you these kind favors because you also have to deal with a lot of things regarding your work but this opportunity knocks only once and i am afraid that if i let this go..it will never come again.

your support means a lot to me.
please think about it and by the way don't mention it to ANYONE...

kua mat, cge na. sana trusat me with this i'm really motivated and serious with this.
thank you so much.

-queeny

(sna umepekto toh..=)...wish me luck!

IM SO HAPPY!!!!!

2007-04-18T23:39:00.000-07:00

for the past the days i cant deny the fact that im totally broke and i hate it..

anyway last night was actually one of the best nights of my life, a close friend(AGAIN, THANK YOU) asked me to attend this seminar regarding business opportunities so i decided to attend and i never really expected that -it will actually change my life- well dont wanna go too much of the details. wish me lots of LUCK. woah! im so excited..

another thing, im selling my fone.. haha.. ivory and i went to makati square to inquire.. asa noh, 2500 daw..sus.. kahit na sira ung bluetooth nia..umaandar parin ah. bd3p.. oh tapos nag-kasunog pa sa makati square..nakakatawa ung experience..everybodys rushing and shouting.haha.nakakatawa!

hmm.. im so happy because..ah well.. ahm.. ahm.. bsta! wee=)

btw, CIARA MARIE CATO YTURRALDE-i cnt come on saturday..we're going to make our proj. sori. besides, tektek aka noel cnt come too..aww.. wish u luck girl-mua!

TO MY ENCHANTED MATES TOM.. c u tom. mit u at my skul by 4,ok? mapua intramuros, manila. ciao!

ang saya ko..wahaha=)
he's hotter than ever.

fatz loving skul

2007-04-16T01:36:00.000-07:00

at last..

my first day of class was really fun..its good to see a lot of familiar faces and all the kwentos with my good friends..=)

*oh i had my hair colored.haha. copper,pare!haha..

-changes-
*apol got a tan
*rea's shaved eyebrows
*kat's newly pierced ears
*abs&gigs grin outfit
*vanessa's dorm
*warren's new hair

ang saya ko tlga..i love my consti subject=) kahit na ung sked ko ay sabog, aus lang..hehe! minsan masayang mag-isa and dumiskarte ng sarili mo.hehe=)
i rily love skul..it gives me a lot of hype..haha=)

...tagaytay on thurs.. hopefully matuloy. dpat matuloy actually.
btw, sori ulit sa mga binomba ko..=(

YANI--nag enrol kna? low bat ako knina eh..

IVORY--get well soon mare.. we'll vct u tom=)

CES&JOE--thurs. k?

PAE--advnce=)

=)

2007-04-04T03:24:00.000-07:00

enugh of all the katangahan.haha!

randomness

2007-04-04T03:13:00.000-07:00

i love ur pose hir xiay!=)
bestfrens cla=)
prity..
nice legs ky, i told u..pa-insured mula.haha
nice shot.. lil blurred.
*thats me..dark side of me..hulaan kung nasan ako.hehe

ces?
ahh my cat...
lovin keechee

mimi, rmembr dis?
puta ito ung gnawa akong multo ni ciara marie cato yturralde! argh.hehe
ces'
poison..
first phones that i had..

pixxx..

2007-04-04T02:57:00.000-07:00

A day with mimi..

she&kayz extra!haha

post pix from ek!

*its ciay..

ciay, remembr ung day na to?haha..wee..but then agen im over him..

cooking and computer games

2007-04-04T02:45:00.000-07:00

*addicted to computer games*

dami na ng fish and pets ko..yipee..

bookworm and text twist rocks too=)

recipe 1: white salad...
(not bad)

at least i tried my best to make myself some kinda productive..haha!

recipe 2: colored hotcake
(sunog ang outcome)

over it..

2007-04-04T02:24:00.000-07:00

Oh I got good news for myself and for those who knows my obsession-slash-deep feelings for him.

After 9 months of being head-over-heels in love with him, I am finally-officially over him( 75 % I think). Well, I am still attracted-slash-infatuated with him but not in love anymore.

I just realized that I dont want to waste my life-tears-time-attention to him; I guess itll be better this way. Its just that my feeling for him doesnt make me feel good anymore. Gumigising nalang ako most of the time with puffy eyes and unending hopes that one day Ill wake up and hell knock at my door and say that he’s in love with me too. But that wont happen I know. Everyday, insecurities are just pouring down on me like hell that I wasnt good enough for him, that I wasnt pretty for him… and all. Its over.

For the past months I was so devastated with his sudden presence in my life. Through it all I am so grateful that this whole thing happened to me- no regrets after all. I learned a lot and I cant deny the fact that he really made me happy in so many ways. I think God gave me this fair opportunity to give myself another chance to start over.

Hes taken and I know hes happy that way. (No bitterness here). Masaya talaga ako for him.

I know the healing takes time. Its a process after all but I am very positive that Ill surely be fine anytime soon.

On a brighter context- Im still so blessed with so much love from my family, friends and God especially. At least with them, I know that I am fully accepted and genuinely love. Sawi man ako in love life successful naman ako with other aspects of my life.

One things for sure, I wont deny myself to love and be loved again for its not everyday that love comes to smear the most effervescent insignia of my life but this time Ill do myself a good favor, I will fall in love with the right one. It’s best to wait than to settle for the one least available, but to wait for the one who will love me than the one whos just around. Its still best to wait for the right one because life is too short to be wasted on the wrong person.

Special thanks to those (ivory, vanessa, rea, apo, kat, gigs, kenneth, ann, kyla, ces, joe, gox, ciay, mimi) who patiently listened to my stories about him and for all the affirming words when I was at my weakest self. Love you all buddies!

pero sayang talaga siya noh? Haha. Just kidding.

Find a man who is more in love with you than you are with him. This way he will never leave you. At least when youre old you have someone to take care of you.

nahhhh

2007-04-04T02:12:00.000-07:00

Maundy Monday—

Exactly 14 days before class starts. Yippee!

Last week was really a bad week with my dearest mother so I decided to make lambing with her by volunteering myself to general clean the house-I removed and wash the curtains, bed sheets and carpets, I even moved some of our frames, I cleaned the floor and all the stuffs. I started at 9 in the morning and ended up at 5 in the afternoon. I was so tired but I felt so happy that moment at least I did something productive. Na-feel ko tuloy yung rush to have my own house—I can’t wait!

Maundy Tuesday—

I woke up with a heavy feeling… I’m constipated again. I hate it! it happens to me most of the time, usually if my sweet intakes reach to the peak. Kapag kase nandito ako sa bahay ng parents ko, kain lang kame ng kain. It’s our hobby. I suddenly remembered my deal with my professor in matlab- we actually have a deal which is we have to lose weight before the class starts tapos ang natalo mag-tretreat sa yellow cab. Asar, talo na ako!

Anyways, at last I’m not constipated anymore-- nag-take ako ng food supplement ko which is for constipation talaga then uminom ako ng nesvita and pineapple juice (good source of fiber). Thank goodness, they all worked. Haha!

After that *successful act* I felt that I’m really starving so I cooked some pancakes. I got some cute shots here.

Oh btw, I can’t wait for tomorrow to come. I’ll be the one who will cook the mixed vegetables dish and the salad for our Thursday lunch get together. Uuwi sina kuya with his family and ate with her hubby. They will all stay here until Saturday morning. Ang saya lang cause we only see each other every weekends or sometimes twice a month lang, it so sad most especially sa par ng parents ko kase parang kalian lang yung complete kame and nakatira kaming lahat ditto sa bahay. Eh ngayon sila na lang ang naiiwan most of the time, kame ni ate we’re already staying in our apartment in makati tapos si kuya may family na sya and doon sila sa bahay sa bulacan nag-stastay. Through it all I like it this way at least we are all independent, its better that way at least we’re being train in the idea of establishing our own self but the sad thing is painful talaga sa part ng parents ko, the fact that they have to let go of us. But that’s life I guess. That’s why its good to grasp every moment with them.

i cant post pix..tumotopak accnt ko.huhu=(

high school- i miss

2007-03-30T08:29:00.000-07:00

Today is a very significant milestone in your life. It is a reward for all the difficulties which you have bravely and successfully hurdled in your attempt to obtain quality education. It is the sweet fruit of your work exerted with your and your parents’ sweat, blood and tears.

Angeles University Foundation takes pride in your accomplishments and remains steadfast in supporting your undertakings for as long as they are anchored on the University’s mission of “total development of man for God and humanity”.

As you face the real world, may you always be mindful of the important role you play in making this world a better place for all of us. Strive for excellence in all that you do and always believe in the power of prayer. Always remember that when you give the world your best, the best will come back to you.

I wish you success, good health and happiness! May the Good Lord bless all your efforts!

Congratulations!

EMMANUEL Y. ANGELES
University Chancellor

*This message was written in a paper that was given to me last April 18, 2006 during our graduation ceremony. This message will always play a special part in my life. The content of the message says it all-the four years in my high school that really enriched my personality will always be remembered. And now that I’m reading it once again, the memories that I had yesterday are coming down through my head. The hardships-failures-rejections-triumphs-success and all the like made me realize that I’m so fortunate that I was once part of the AUF community. Time really ticks so fast and now that I’m almost done in my freshman year in college, the drive for me to success still motivates me. I know greater challenges and attempts to give up will occur in the coming days but as I always say- I won’t quit and someday I’ll make all of you proud.

LATELY

2007-03-30T08:16:00.000-07:00

pix 1-2-3: coffee at c.o.

pix 4-5-6: getting thrilled when i saw noel's dad! gwapo!

pix 1-9: ivading audrey manalad's crib!

she's so artistic, i must say! YAH THAT'S her holding a CONDOM.hehe

im loving donuts now.

i love this muvi. outdated nako..haha..zac is so gorgeous..

here is ann's work..she got inspired with noel's looks..haha..poor girl!

we are destined -

2007-03-30T08:14:00.000-07:00

*first, xiay (one of my good gal pal back in high school) came to visit me. She bought a shake and Japanese cake. As usual we talked about anything under the sun until we decided to curl our hairs and give each other a make over then take pictures of ourselves-talking about vanity. It was really fun, make up is our life and there’s no doubt about it. I really love xiay coz she’s like a sister to me; I really enjoy her company-so much.

*xiay & I decided to go to mcdo and meet her bf-mike. As always, we had our own kulitan moments. That time, I was really hoping to see his dad since he used study in auf. I just don’t know why. Then after few minutes, I saw a group of men heading to the entrance then they had their seats, to my surprise, the man seated in front of my view was actually his dad. I’m speechless and I can’t believe it. It’s actually my first time to see him in person. He really looks like his son-the hair, eyes, lips, nose, lips, height, body built, and the way he speaks... The voice... The way he wipes his mouth... I can’t help myself to stare him then I texted him the whole thing that I saw regarding his father. Then, rr and jc came and give them a buss on cheek. I’m just too glad to saw them so I decided to transfer to their place so that I can actually have a better view while staring at his dad. Then to my surprise, his dad started staring me like he knows me. It’s really a real-constant stare, I tried not look at him but his eyes are actually glued to me. I started to get conscious so I decided to go back to my original seat but he’s still looking at me. I tried to pretend as if he doesn’t exist. After few minutes, I transferred to jc’s table and for the nth time, he’s giving me that weird look. Then together with his colleagues they left their table then he walked at the side of our table so I bowed my head and jc saw how his dad looked at me from head to toe. I can’t believe it-why. oh why.

I was really shocked. So head straight to the restroom and when I was about to open the door, he came out from the men’s rest room and looked at me again, then I hurriedly entered the restroom after few seconds I opened the door to check if he’s still outside and thankfully he left the place. Then I took my seat and xiay told me that he was actually really staring at me.

So weird, I just don’t get why. If he only knew that his son was a good friend of mine and since the day I met his son-I was actually head over heels in love with him. In totality, I am so happy and kinikilig (the old man caught my attention-maybe because I see him in him).

*while having a coffee with Kenneth, I received a text message from faye (a good friend back in high school)- saying that noel’s dad was actually having a dinner at fortune tea house. Faye actually know his dad because faye’s dad came from tarlac too. So I texted him saying that I’m actually at the same place where his father was too. (yeah, I lied) I even joked at him by saying that I’ll go to his father’s table and introduce myself as his girlfriend. Haha.

*yesterday, mimi (high school friend) asked me to go with her to attend her friend’s debut. But I decided not to come since I don’t have anything to wear. According to mimi, the debutant is from tarlac (same place where he lives) so I asked her if there’s any name of his dad in the invitation. Well, I don’t actually what mimi said to me. While I was at balcony I received a text from mimi stating that his father was actually at the debut party. It is so weird and at the same time nanghinayang- dapat andun din ako. I felt a little upset but amazed as well with how these things are suddenly happening then a jeep suddenly passed by and I saw the headboard and saw what was actually written (it’s his surname-) Kenneth and kyla saw it too and I was like freaking out. I can’t understand why these things are happening. It is so hard to believe but they just happened. (march 27, 2007)

*after I had my lunch I decided to go to ann’s house. So I went there but she’s still entertaining her visitors so she asked me to switch on the television.. to my surprise the contestant’s name in eat bulaga is his name. Ang galing noh?
*later in the afternoon, we had our coffee at c.o. with kyla. I really miss hanging out with them; I’ve known them since the world began. Oh btw, they have a new name for me-it’s fhatz the paranoid. Para daw akong stalker na ewan, na parang obsess. Okay, whatever still for me it is really-love. After that we went to kenneth’s shop then I saw a calendar on one of the shop’s wall-it’s his dad. Grabeh, hard to believe but very true. When I saw it, I was jumping and shouting, na-t.l ata ako sa tatay..hehe..just kidding. The whole scenario simply amazes me so much. Whatever the meaning of all these things, sana it is for good.
*after kina Kenneth, we decided to drop by at aud’s house. Close sila nila kyla ngaun.. omigosh, I love her room. I took lots of pics. She’s so artistic-that girl.hehe. she’s superb and all.
*then our next stop is my house. We installed fotoshops.. chat.. then ann was really inspired with noel’s looks so she decided to make her first fotoshop proj using noel’s pix. Haha.
*I’m starting to get irritated with my mother. I just don’t understand her lately. I’m pissed off-really, I am.

****not so good day (Thursday)

*I went to manila today to encash my check at quezon city. While on the bus, I looked up then there’s my tears just come rolling down my cheeks and they seem not to stop from falling. Too much drama I know but.. (nvm, its complicated. Hindi rin maiintindihan ng iba).
*then after quezon city my next stop is at mega mall tomeet ivory.. as always, she’s late for 2 hours so I surf the net the whole time and when she came I made kwento of the whole thing that happened for the past days in connection to noel and his dad. She really got so thrilled, the whole time we’re just laughing so hard. After the chikahan, we roamed around and saw the dream havianas of ces so I bought them for her. They’re cute-really.
*when I got home, my parents seem to be so upset because I was out of reach (bat empty) plus I was late for our dinner (its they’re anniv). In short, nasira ko ang mood nila so nag-take out nlang sila ng food. Wla kmeng lhat sa mood. I think it’s not my fault-ang hirap intindihin ng parents ko lately, isang reason na din yun bakit gusto ko na pumasok. Tapos, kennth even told me that it was actually my fault. So bad trip talaga ako the whole time.

u and me

2007-03-30T08:10:00.000-07:00

The strains of lifehouse’s “you and me” wafted into my ears, and I shivered. If I could dance to just one song with the guy of my dreams. If only. I tried to fight off the jealousy that was eating my insides since day one in college-the day that I had my conversation with him. It struck me how badly I wanted to be in his girl’s shoes. It was all too much. I bet they really did look like the perfect couple.

I felt sick. Very unwell.
I just really don’t know how I can fight this feeling. I’m tired of this whole thing where I did the only thing I could when I’m alone-that is cried myself to sleep.

damn it

2007-03-28T22:35:00.000-07:00

fair visits from old friends..coffee with bestbuds..constant nagging of my mother..hot-sunny-boring days..while evrybodys excited to hit the beach, im busy counting the days for april 16 to come(official first day for 4th term in college)..

i saw his dad last tuesday..somehing weired happened.
since the day -he- crash into my world..everything started to turned into beautiful things but... it didnt actually last.

now im HELPLESS-CONFUSED-DOWN.

chillin at paseo de sta. rosa

2007-03-24T12:19:00.000-07:00

oha nasusuka na.
since i dont eat vegies..jeanine dared me to eat the whole kangkong adobo serving..if i finish the whole serving, i wont share in our bill. oh well..hard though but i made it,.haha.
sinigang na hipon.the best.
putek, watda?
yeah..with raising of finger pa.haha

kakatira ko lng ng drugs dito.haha.kiddin.my eyes turned red bcuz of stress.haha
yummy.

ivory&jeanine
kainan club at paseo de sta. rosa(astig tong place..para xang blue wave version laguna)
no joke.my real rxn wen i saw the dish.haha.
siga.

see that. KANGKONG..huhu

suyuan.
fatz with the purple clutch bag

renn..
its us.

-i had fun. putek kht ang sunget nung driver ni jeanine.haha.-

invading the phils. starts NOW.=)

DOS at EK

2007-03-24T12:07:00.000-07:00

basang-basa
wet once from top
guys..show some &%$#!
not so HOT papa ren
not so HOT too

last minute
been here
dark
love this pic. candid.

pose.

wid jeanine.putek, DUGYOT!
trias-ivory.rea.jeanine
badingss
huh?
dark pare.

asa.i hate this pic. got dizzy,
ang kulet.
fatz&ivory strikes once again
pose at the post
us

on a ride -riogrande
see those waves..
nice pang mtv ang pose
well..
having a blast

UNO at enchanted

2007-03-24T11:24:00.000-07:00

damn wet
watso funny in here?
basang sisiw
geets wacky
its me
pike&papa danilo
**rea babeh..
poor kid
hanep sa pose
face the cam

sunlight

tnx for the shades

anak nila.haha.
log-jam
agen

wind efek
kiss & beh
here we cme
exposing my damage nail art.haha
weh!

sun strikes
sun agen
by me
stand out
gotta ride

wet underarms

rea's orange haus.haha
dating!
sweet.

+the rest is history+

trip with frens

2007-03-23T21:30:00.000-07:00

yesterday(fri march 23'07)

*waiting for someone to come at mrt station for (2hours)

*head to ren and rea's haus

*walter mart

*enchanted spells F-U-N

*DAMN wet

*dinner at paseo de sta.rosa

*get lost at south super hway

*ma-ihi sa edsa

-tired.happy-

pix agen

2007-03-22T02:41:00.000-07:00

**random pix of me..haha!

-aw..i miss auf..itol uniform ko nung nag-shoot ako sa kabilang court eh.haha!!
*8chibby fatz..haha!
**off to bed..
**yaddah..yaddah!
**bored..haha!

*NAIL ART-eh-

**i love my nails.haha!

*poor frances!!

-peace ces..ang cute nga ng pic na toh..para kang iniwan ng syota mo.haha!

**LIKE WE're Still KIDS

**work of art namen yan.haha!

**its PAMELA & KIM(yes..kim gantan)

**wiwit kim..sexy!
**yes..go pae..doing some streching huh?hehe..

**finals ata toh last week..

-waiting for our math test results..

(nervous.freak)

**may alaga namen na daga(NAMED -DODOT-)

**which one do u prefer?

a. read ur fuckin psycho buk

b. read ther latest ish of 17?

_haha_

+enchanted here i come+

pixxx

2007-03-22T02:21:00.000-07:00

**clown for a day..

*roar!

Yui: tati im scared!

fatz: roar! i'll eat u!

**going wacky!

**ces-jap-cub-fatz

*prances wats up with this?haha
**tito jap & suruts
**tito aron was kissed by suruts..sweet!
**oh inaantok na nga..haha!

**cIAY!

**Yah..pose!

**a day with CES!

**fast facts:

1.isa lang ang smile ni ces sa dalwang pic na yan.

2. kirat ang mata ko.haha

sad thing

2007-03-22T02:14:00.000-07:00

It was Sunday afternoon when ate Neri (bro’s wife) broke the news to us. My brother is planning to resign at his work after the election. He used to be a chief of staff of a congressman for three years now and this coming election his boss will run again for the same position and most likely he’ll win for the second time. Last month I went to my bro’s office in Makati and that’s where I met nico (his boss’ son) and that man was actually the main reason why my bro has been in a dilemma lately. That f*%#%$g man was the one who wants to get the position of my brother-soon. And what’s really bad with the whole scenario is that-the f*%#%$g man is not even capable of the position. You see my bro has been always the one who do the job, he’s simply deserving of that position. But in this world, it’s really a fact that you can’t get rid of this people who possess a crab mentality. These people think that my brother’s financial status right now is because of their father’s help. Big correction-kung ano man meron si kuya ay pinaghirapan niya. Own blood. Own cleverness. Own fret. Own labors.

Puta naman kase ang yayaman na nila, bakit sobrang sakim nila. Di bale sana kung capable sila pero they’re simply not, they’re even planning to do my brother as a dummy-meaning my brother will do all the work of a chief of staff but all the credits will go to that f%$#@%n spoiled brat son named nico.

Naiinis ako because we don’t deserve this. I use *we* because most likely the whole family is involve and affected with this problem. Naawa ako sa kuya ko (tears) because I know that he’s hurt. Behind his laughter is sadness at the rear. I know how worried he is-since the whole family is depending on him. Yah, my father and sister earns too but my brother’s help to us is really a big thing.

Siya lang talaga ang nakapagpagaan ng buhay namen financially. That’s why I really look up to him-he’s intelligent. A man of principle. Humble. Kaya nalulungkot ako with what he’s going through right now, I know how fragile-slash-emotional he is. Ako kasi yung female counterpart niya that’s why I know. See, he can’t even say it to us, pinadaan niya pa talaga sa wife niya eh. Kase maiiyak yun for sure.

I know in the coming days, things will most likely change. Less is more I think? I’m used to the life naman kung saan kailangan mag-tipid. I believe way lang ito for us para pukpokin ni GOD, maybe we did something na hindi niya nagustuhan or he’s just testing us how we’ll get through with this another storm in our lives. I’m very positive that things will certainly get better. We’ve been through a lot. Naranasan na namen mag-hati sa isang isda kung saan six ang mag-hahati. Naranasan na din namen ng walang sasakyan. Naransan na namen mag-tiis. So whatever happens I’m ready. Siguro it’s really high time na din for me to do something and support myself kahit papano. Who knows signing up as a student assistant is school will bring more opportunities for me. I know got to do something. I know.

I’ll be fine. I hope.

efforts its all worth it

2007-03-18T21:50:00.000-07:00

My Grades

Choose a school year/term: SY 2006 TERM 3 SY 2006 TERM 2 SY 2006 TERM 1

CS100
B11
2.75

FIL102
A21
2.00

MATH101L
B4
2.50

MATH150
A9
2.75

NSTP103
B1
1.50

PE103
A3
1.50

PSY101
B24
2.00

RZL101
B15
1.25

Weighted Average: 2.13

INTRAMUROS
DATE
BATCH / LAST NAME

20 March 2007
2003/Prior (M-Z 7:30am-11am; A-L 12noon-4:30pm)

21 March 2007
2004 & 2005 (M-Z 7:30am-11am; A-L 12noon-4:30pm)

22 March 2007
2006 (M-Z 7:30am-11am; A-L 12noon-4:30pm)

23 March 2007
Revision of Load

16 April 2007
Start of Classes

crab mentality sux

2007-03-18T21:40:00.000-07:00

im so hapi with my grades pero naiinis ako sa mga taong naiingit-slash-gusto kming maging pulube ulet! argh. crab mentality sux!

cesc takes a nap

2007-03-17T02:00:00.000-07:00

*quiet tulog ang tao!
*her retainer! weew..
*boredom strikes!
*k.o!
*inside her bag: bkt tatlo ang lip tool mo? haha!
*wiwit!
*kissed by SURUTS!
*bahu?
*bt may hapee nuts?munch on..haha
*A PICTURE OF THE LOUSY GIRL AND HER STUFFS..HAHA!

-SHE WANTS TO KILL ME RIGHT NOW WHILE POSTING THIS SH*T!-
WAHAHAAA...

tasha

2007-03-17T01:53:00.000-07:00

bye bye mapua
its been 3 terms rin since pumasok ako ng college.. well i guess its bye bye time na talga.. ive met a lot of friends rin ung mga tipo ng taong di ko expected na magiging kaclose ko.. pepsquad.. blockmates.. tska mga nakatambay sa gym..
namimis ko na ung favorite tambayan ng block natin.. ung gym.. haha! kulang na lang pangalanan na natin ung sarili nating spot dun e.. fudtrip sa canteen at kantunan.. ung pag may quiz papaxuk ng maaga para magreview.. ung dialouge na.. "kita kita na lang sa tapat ng bukstore".. "wer na u? dito na us".. "yani, tambay tau sa inyo".. "dapat magkakaset tau ha?".. "oo! sure pass daw jan, pag nag-aral ka!".. kla ko as long as nsa college ako mgagamit ko ung mga phrase na yan.. cguro minalas lng talaga ako.. daya ko noh? 3 terms palang sumuko na ko.. pero gnun talaga e.. mahirap e.. di nila mintndhan un..
gustuhin ko man na jan na, ayw parin e..
b13, best blockmates ever..!

pike-mamimis ko ung panggagaya ko seu..
fhatz-ung pagkopya ko seu ng hw's and pagbalita ko seu na naiintndhan ko ung lesson
abs-nak, ung sweetnes mo.. and mga trips natin..
gigs-ung magkaset tau tpos di mo ko pnakokopya
mhoa-ung pagtext mo sakin ng "wer kau" hindot ka,, kht smart ka nirereplayan kita..
arjin-ung bango mo.. hmmmm bango bango talaga
kim-ung wetpaks mong nakakainlove.. haha
steve-ung pagsabi mo saking sure pass, hindi nmn
rhea-1st found frend.. mga fudtrips natin
yani-pagkwento mo sa luvlyf niu ni tek
ren-pag-aya mong kumain ng pizza
vanessa- ung kasexyhan mo..
jenine, kriselda-mga biruan natin tsaka punchlines tuwing tues pagtapos ng p.e.
apol-mga kwento mong nkakatakot hehe
kat-pagpilit mong ibounce ung pisngi ko
eman-ung pag iimpersonate natin sa bluemoon
kezia-tukayo.. ung lage taung magkasama.. pagcut natin sa fil
ap-ung okrayan natin.. na lage kang talo.. opps! talk to my lawyer.. hehe
lester-asan ka na nak.. miss ka na ni momy..
xempre.. ung pagtambay ko sa gym habang nagppractice ung mga varcity.. hahaha..
sharksfin.. greentea.. jamaican.. bitso2..
"ni hao penge kendi.. shi shi penge kendi"
--from tash's blog.

this brought me into tears..tash,kip in touch..we'll really miss u..
aww..=(

kiss-Goodbye 3rd term

2007-03-14T21:26:00.001-07:00

finally..finals ended..requirements passed..-monday is the day!! argh..

grades will be out on monday..

unfortunately my sked for 4th term is a big mess! argh..i cnt pre reg..=(

no wonder kung nxt term sasabog-sabog ang sked ko..err.i hate it!

kht anung mangyari di ako kukuha ng sat. class..haha..=)

ivory & i watched *because i said so* yesterday..ang ganda then i had my nails done..they're so cute then we saw kua erwin(noel's GORGEOUS BROTHER-better off than him)haha..dats it..

hmm..dilakado ung matlab & cslec ko..sna di ako bumagsak..pray for me..

tnxie..=)

kiss-Goodbye 3rd term

2007-03-14T21:26:00.000-07:00

finally..finals ended..requirements passed..-monday is the day!! argh..

grades will be out on monday..

unfortunately my sked for 4th term is a big mess! argh..i cnt pre reg..=(

no wonder kung nxt term sasabog-sabog ang sked ko..err.i hate it! kht anung mangyari di ako kukuha ng sat. class..haha..=)

ivory & i watched *because i said so* yesterday..ang ganda then i had my nails done..they're so cute then we saw kua erwin(noel's GORGEOUS BROTHER-better off than him)haha..dats it..

hmm..dilakado ung matlab & cslec ko..sna di ako bumagsak..pray for me..

tnxie..=)

tempting

2007-03-13T02:01:00.000-07:00

..i wonder how many times i tried to stop the urge in me to be like the rest..

time and again --

i want to try new things..

i want to commit..

i want to explore..

i want to be bad..

i want to be mean-slash-tactless..

a part of myself is somehow tired of being good(at least im trying to be)..people think i am so fragile-vulnerable-weak-crybaby-good girl..but i want to fight back..my ego wants *it* even though i know that in the end doing all these stuffs will lead me to nowhere.

wapaakk..THE DEAD END.

certainly i dont want that to happen. i dont wanna wake up one day and just realize that my life is a big MESS. the type of life that you cant undo anything but just accept all the consequences brought my own foolishness.

im trying so hard to resist it-coz if i'll do it..i know i'll be nowhere in sight coz i'll just hide..-hide to the wrld where i live on.

oh pls pray for me..-_-

on a high

2007-03-13T01:10:00.000-07:00

- Get Your Own

family affair

2007-03-12T03:51:00.000-07:00

+!^#@*(#(

here's te at kua's ofice..
after class with wiwi..
*fvorite playmtes..hehe!
**woh nice one.. dont hide kenet!
*wow..part of the fmily?
**macho kuno.haha!
**aw..ang lalake nmen sa family..haha!
**so cute..as lways!
**pstt..miss pwede mag pakilala?
..cndid nil kua and te neri..hehe!
**nung merun dun?

**clssic..bagong gising ta ako jan ky mikha akong ewan.haha..
**i love my Mama..
**sensored!
**COME TO LOLO...hah!
**sexy!wiwit!

**sisters..we'll lways be.i love this freak!
**wasted mother?
**smile..
**model?
**wiwit agen..meet my folks..=)

======

yi..im so happy..
accdg to my prof, i passed my analgeom this term..
weee..
the feeling is so great..becuse i know that i rily worked hard for it..
aw..
im just so happy but part of me bleeds for a gud fren.aww..
but i know she'll pass too..coz she dsrves it..
even if im so wasted..sleepy..tired..a part of jumps for joy!
welcome diff. cal..
yipeee..

PASADO NKO NG ANALYTIC GEOM..

partida ang hirp ng exam at di pa ako nag-aral..haha..bukaas psych naman and fil2.wiwit!

ivory and i watched u got me..yeah baby, ang gand..kht corny..very realistic.hha!

ang sy ko..wiwit!

sa skul dis week

2007-03-10T00:23:00.000-08:00

I CANT PRE REG

2007-03-09T23:49:00.000-08:00

*ako..ako..ako..

-facial-
-wasted pare-
-from rea's fone-
-by apol-
-kinuhanan ako nung clasmate ko..i was caught-

haha.lolz.its fun to be silly AT TIMES.
-emo?
-silly kid.
-nice
-blurrrrrr
-puyat.-

*pix last sunday-kenneth meets my roots in tarlac-

-kapal,solo pix pa.haha-

i cant pre reg to my mapua account..it means mauubusan na ako ng slots for next term. i hate it.. it really bother me. A LOT. sob.most likely i'll end up having a disastrous sked minus my frens wid me.sob.hate it.hate it. Lorrrrrrrrrrrrd, cge na paandarin mo na po ung my mapua account ko.huhu.plsssss..=(

randomness

2007-03-09T00:49:00.000-08:00

this pix made me think how my close frens really changed(for better)

i got this pix from jad's blog..its a yfc grup pix.hapi lang bcuz sobrang proud ako kay *klie*ces*jap*jad* becuz of ol the things that they are doing for the welfare of others. sobrang pinagmamalaki ko sila.

-two thumbs up for u guys-

keep it up..

*kabataan para kay cristo*

**two pix from tin's multiply. they are so cute..

i suddenly miss hanging out with them...

**this is so cute*

i just love it.haha!

TAKING CHARGE

2007-03-09T00:41:00.000-08:00

A GIRL DREAMS.
A WOMAN MAKES IT HAPPEN.

(am i ready for this?)
in the coming days, i know that things will change. i know and i can feel it. its as if im not yet equiped in taking charge of my life but i know i have to live with it.

my parents-slash-brother(and his family) will migrate soon.
next year.
2 years from now.
i dunno. it bothers me. i know i'll be really on my own soon. before it used to excite me but now if i could only stop the time just to fix the mess that i did and turned back the time and start all over again. but, i know i cant.

im now in charge with the every decisions that i make in my life. i know i am the one whose accountable for all of this.
i have to make a plan for my future. i have to be responsible and fully geared for whats going to happen soon.
honestly, the idea doesnt excites me instead it makes me feel scared.
really SCARED.
thats why i dont wanna think about the superficial things..
the love sick problem. the insecurities.my *uckin grades(hope not.).my plans for summer with frens.my driving lessons.

S***!

theres more to life that i have to deal with.

dadi noel

2007-03-06T04:42:00.000-08:00

yani luk at his dad.haha!

kmukha nila kua noh?

luk alike.haha!

LAID BACK im lovin it

2007-03-05T17:54:00.000-08:00

***happeeeeeeee...

nkakatamad mag blog kya fotoblog rox

2007-03-04T05:15:00.000-08:00

--random pix..bsta last wik..wee..saya ko today..xtra tnx kenet!mua!

election 07

2007-02-28T23:29:00.000-08:00

**CAN YOU FEEL THE RUSH?

Genuine Opposition
Villar, Manuel Jr. (Manny)Position Sought: Senator -->

Personal information:
Date of Birth: December 13, 1949
Place of Birth: Manila
Status: Married
Spouse: Cynthia Aguilar
No. of children: 3
Age: 57

Education
University of the Philippines, MBA, 1973; University of the Philippines, BS Business Administration, 1970; Mapua Institute of Technology, High School

Profession/occupation:
Senator
Work experience
Senator, 2001-2007
Senate President, 2006-2007 (13th Congress)
Representative, 1992-2001 (9th to 11th Congress)
House Speaker, 1998-2000 (11th Congress)
Entrepreneur, 1975-present
Financial Analyst, Private Development, 1972-1975
Auditor, Sycip Gorres & Velayo, 1971-1972

Team Unity
Montano, Cesar (Buboy)Position Sought: Senator -->

Personal information:
Date of Birth: August 1, 1962
Place of Birth: Manila
Status: Married
Spouse: Sunshine Cruz
Number of children: 5
Age: 44

Education
Lyceum University, Industrial Engineering

Profession/occupation:
Actor/director/film producer/businessman
Work experience
Movie/television actor (The Call of the River, Jose Rizal, Muro Ami, etc.)
Movie producer (The Call of the River)
United Nations Educational, Scientific and Cultural Organization
(UNESCO) Philippine commissioner for culture and arts, (appointed May 19, 2004)

**the election hype is on..tv..streets..newspaper..radio..i wonder how do these senatoriables spend millions of pesos just to run..i mean the salary of a senator doesnt even reach a hundred thousand per month..surely, hidden agendas are on..poor PHILIPPINES. im so afrais for the coming generation-the rudeness of the politics that we have. i mean everybody should be aware of these things because in the end THE YOUTH like us are the ones in charge for this big mess.

sana just for once, there will be someone who will really SERVE not because of the perks and previledges of the position but because the know THEY CAN CONTRIBUTE AND SOMEHOW EASE THE PAIN of the country.=(

**he believes in *YOU*-yes you.

2007-02-28T21:37:00.000-08:00

**CANOE beach resort..=)

blockmates,3 to 4 hours from manila..oh pwd na ba to?

**cant wait..sna walang bagsak sten and sana wag na magtaas tuition.hehe=)

---HE IS LIKE A CHILD WHO CAST AWAY A DIAMOND TO SEIZE A PEBBLE---

-pareng jose rizal.

end of my MANILA LIFE?

2007-02-27T23:50:00.000-08:00

GOODBYE MAPUA-HELLO AUF-or-HAU?

I was a bit confused when i got msg last nyt from a friend..saying..

**please wear blck tshirt tomorow as a sign of our protest against the tuition fee increase. we are hoping for ur cooperation.ples pass.

oky, i didnt wear black.

i didnt care at first but i was really terified wen i learned that the increase will be 1600 to 2000+ per unit...!

i mean i got 16 units per term..plus the misaleneous fee(eke blu ispell)..so per term we hve to pay 40 plus thousand considering we have 4 terms in one year.. so in one year

160,000!!

naman..=(

im afraid that if my mama lerned this news, she'll ask me to transfer in angeles.eeer...

_I DONT WANT TO...=(

transfering in ust is not a gud idea though, engineering courses there are not that good.

friend of mine sugested the idea of transfering in la salle taft..50K per term.. so 3 terms in one year costs ..

150,000.,.

cheaper than us..but...i dont see myself studying there,i mean the life style seems to be so extravagnt..im not like that anymre..

bsta im so worried...i just cant stand the idea.it bothers me.

im loving mapua. i love my school.i love the way things are going ryt now.

i hte it.

puta ang tkaw sa pera ng admin!

nkakabusit..!!!

IVOR JEAN GUITTAP

2007-02-27T02:15:00.000-08:00

**teka, galing yan s adigi cam ko ah?hehe..
**its us..-me-ivory-yanee..
**show them wat u got!
**mare...yeeee...ma-touch ka, this entry of mine goes REALLY for u.

just want to say
THANK YOU
two words that all i got to say for u.

bsta, u wer rily der..i didnt imajin dat we'll reach this far..

we struggle to lots of things..
deadlines for anal geom assignments..
for fud trips around intramuros..
for greenbelt mass..
for landmark-g4 artist sighting(remembr SAM-ZANJOE-DION)..we r so crazy!
for the unending kwentuhan inside the fx..
for sharksfin and milo trippin..
for making abang of kua..
for waiting me outside just b4 my rizal class ends..

i mean..we've shared A LOT.

and whats rily amazin with u is dat u never get tired of listening to my raves and rants with my life..sobrang i owe u a lot..i didnt expevt to meet a very *inspiring-slash-prity(like me)-godfearing-patient..and the list goes on..

mare, thank u very much for just simply being there,u never failed to cheer me up when im almost at the end..

bsta i'll always be at ur side no matter wat.
sa hirap man ng calculus or anal geom.

i loooooooooooooooooooooooooove u so much.

i trust u so much..& i will nvr leave u..
=)
muah!!

-_-

gagu, wag kang maiyak..sipon mo tumutulo.haha!

things happen for a CAUSE

2007-02-26T00:45:00.000-08:00

saturday was a rollercoaster ride for me..-secrets revealed.pain started to get me. but at the end of the day my friends wer der to pick me up wen i was about to give up.

*kenneth for the sorta date that we had. for the cofi. for the sundo. for everything.=)

*ces.jap.cub-ang pagbubulabog sa bhay ng 12 in the morning. for the pancit canton slash cofi session that we had.(masku rox).love u ol.

-for u.. wer nt able to fix things in accordance to the way we want it to be.at least we're stil frens. sori.

**this day remarks the start of..

moving on..

letting go..

acceptance..

it still hurts but i am willing to accept everything.

for the last time. this is for real.

i wish evryone well..esp. ALYANNA ANASTACIO.

i dont wanna waste my life trying to force things to happen..

i'll just ENJOY life and learn from everything i made in the past

i still love u LOSER

2007-02-23T19:57:00.000-08:00

sadness

2007-02-23T19:53:00.000-08:00

Its hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen but its even harder to give up especially when its everything you ever wanted.

If I cant hear your heart beat you are too far away.

Nobody said loving you is easy but loving you is tough,

Love is only a chapter in a guys life but to a girl it’s a whole book.

I hate everything about you but why do I love you>?

Anyone can catch your eye but it takes someone special to catch your heart.,
T_T

pissed off

2007-02-23T19:48:00.000-08:00

Pissed off. Turned off. Disappointed.

Friday morning, I woke up with a lot of bites on my legs. They’re terrible, I’m telling you. Reddish color then very painful too. Eer..

…back to the subject.

I was really excited for Friday to come.
I’m supposed to watch the PBA game 6 with the usuals. Everything was set, I bought a new top. I bought the tickets at Araneta the other day. Again, everything was set.

Not until I got a text from that-HE CAN’T COME.

According to him, his mom will arrive here in manila..blah..blah..blah.

SAME ALLIBY.

Then next text I got, he’s coming.(sort of)
Then when we waited for his class to finish, he can’t come again because of blah..blah..blah..

Then he just said, I have to go. I’ll just text you.

Whattah SHIT.

Together with my companion, we just ended up sitting in a bench and complete silence started to conquer the place.

Deep inside me, I wanted to cry. I was so affected. I was disappointed. I didn’t expect that after all this time that we/ “I” tried to reach out to him, he will just…

Looking at the scenario,there’s no actually big deal but I didn’t expect this to happen.

With my companion we decided to go home first …SILENCE inside the fx.

Until I reached our apartment. I was still quiet then when I opened my bag, I saw the tickets. Then I texted him again, I asked if he’s still going or not..then again..i got the same answer.

NO, I CAN’T. SORRY.

It made my heart shattered into pieces with so much hurt inside.
HURT because you know how hard I tried to reach out to you when this whole mess in your life started to occur. I was there when you asked me to. I tried to supplied EVERYTHING that you asked.
I tried my best to understand you. To give in to your favors. To just be dearly NICE to you.

But the problem is,

IKAW MISMO ANG LUMALAYO.

I don’t want to think that you are such a user.
I tried to be deaf when rumors are about to reach me.
I wanted to give you a chance to prove that you are not what others are thinking of.

Yah, you’re drop dead gorgeous. You are famous in your own rights. You are rich.
Everybody seems to be crazy in love with you. And that makes you so HIGH that I can no longer reach you. Not anymore. NOT ANYMORE.

For sure later this afternoon, we’ll bump into each other. I don’t really know what to react… I am so MAD not whit you but with the way you behave and act.

I can’t pretend that each time I see you that I don’t care and need you but you’ll never see me crying you know inside I feel like dying. =(

Whenever I am with him there is a quiet joy that fills me. Everything recedes into the background. It seems like no one else is around. Every time could disappear for all I care. I feel like we’re alone even in a crowded place.

Maybe, you are just sent by the devil to confuse girls and send them on the path of damnation. MAYBE-YOU ARE.

You are such a BORE.
BUT I THINK I LOVE you…BUT I HATE you TOO.

T_T

Ang dami naman jan,come to think of it. I should be happy with the other guy but I still want-slash-need you all this time.

YOU are hurting me, I am hurt and I am hurting HIM too.
Mahal kita-mahal niya ako-di ko sya mahal-di mo rin ako mahal…=(
Because you are so floored with the girls around you..with the fame that you..with your looks. YOU ARE SO FLOORED.

for ces ..im hungry

2007-02-23T19:43:00.000-08:00

**CES rmembr dis??hehe..

**my favorite..
chiken sisig..yumm.=)

friday nyt sux

2007-02-23T19:39:00.000-08:00

**hanggang tv nlang..=(

**bugbog.ouch!
**insect bites.
**huhu,ouch.
**awww,,=(

friday mixxx

2007-02-23T19:29:00.000-08:00

**lame creatures.

**apol in deep txting...

**ivory indeep riding rizal's life

**kat & me..trippin.

**breakingdown...

*so lame..

**psycho class..

**reporting as always.
**mitch, di ka na nakabukaka ngayun! hehe
**ui prity.hehe!
**mukha daw kalansay si lorio?haha..peace!

skul sux for NOW

2007-02-23T19:24:00.000-08:00

random things i did

2007-02-22T00:28:00.000-08:00

**THURSDAY--cslec day -_-

**pikeh..taship..fatZzzzzzzzz..
**purfecccccctt...
**oh cge singit..haha!!

+Wat i rily love with thursday is seeing my crush..
Nathaniel the E.E. student-slash-my classmate in shem2 last term-slash-..gwapo...killer looks=)

**natakpan ko xa!
*8cted beside me. waaa..
**wee..infront of me..=)

**ASH.

i allowed myself to be dirty because i accept the fact that i contribute to the dark world of sins that i live in. i take part in stepping forward for this mess and i hope for the best.

A-ccept

S-tepforward

H-ope

**i attended the mass at greenbelt with ivory,tash&rodel.

it was one of the best mass i attended for 17 years of breathing..but there we're actually A LOT of funny moments.ahaha!!

WEDnesday..**CLASSROOM alone.

--i didnt attend my math class just to review for my fil..psych&rizal long tests..take note: REVIEW. but i ended up.. taking pictures of myself.haha!!

**alone..

any ghost?
**pa-cute..
**ah think agen..
**come on, do i luk like puyat?
**RED rox.
**shock..
**touch the color tan.haha!
**red.red.red.IM in LOVE with red.

**BELATED HAPPY BDAY PECS.love u much(feb21-07)

**TUESDAY is P.E. day..

**caught u here!! haha..
**hule!
**show some grin!
**im loving milo.

my MILO intake is 4 cups a day?

hehe.

MILO ADDICT-fhatz..

**stolen SHOTS.

**hungry..
**fix the messy hair.
**bt pati plate kinunan?
**agen..

**psych ctmates...

--love 'em..

**perez..molino..natividad gets wacky!
**with riel PANTE.haha!
**mitch, bt ka nakabukaka?

**okay chad, we're gorgeous i know.haha!
**get stolen.

--bagsak ako sa 3rd quiz ng analgeom.. 45/100..first time.ouch.
nung wed. bumagsak din ako sa psych. FIRST TIME.
*bt kung kailan patapos na ang term dun pa sumesemplang.argh.

THY WILL BE DONE.

--i just bought our tikets for tomorows game 6 of pba. i only got upper class b tikets. SOLD OUT na lhat.huhu..
hopefully matuloy kame..
-_-

making sense

2007-02-20T00:54:00.000-08:00

HAPPY AURA

**u finally called me up.tnx=)

i think the thing that we have now gve me an assurance that i still dserve to be hapi though.

lets kip the secret to last.

as long as we are cpable of hidding.

at leats no questions asked.no pressures.no gossips.

we're better off to be this way.

i cnt wait to see U.

-__-

game 5 na mamaya..cnt wait..

ginebra vs smb

>wats kipin me bc dis days?skul stuffs. i got 3 test for tom.

1030-12==fil102

12-130==psycho

130-3==rizal

spare me some sleep.

i nid one.

i badly nid one.

COMMERCIAL: nabunggo ako ng jip knina sa may taft.. err..ang sakit, i got a big (pasa) on my left arm.

GAGONG driver.

-----commercial ended.

im planning to watch pba on fri..hm?

i want to witness the game ..argh!!!

hmm..as of this moment i cant wait for the march 16 to hit the calendar..

BAD SIDE: end of term na..ill miss my classmates in diff. subj, in specific..ill miss my ctmates.

will i pass my anal geom? cs lec? matlab this term?

TOTALLY get broke.T_T

GOOD SIDE: ill stay in angeles&bulacan..

ill be out with my blockmates for our zambales thingy..

soon to feel the soil of HK.

more sleep.sleep.sleep.

say goodbye to TRAFFIC.

i think all i got to do is to sieze the moment.

coz on april 16, welcome 4th term na in my life.haha!

lets get it on..=)

IM CRUSHING ON ERWIN JAMES SALVADOR VILLANUEVA

*sabi ni noel,may gf na xa?

is it a lie noel?

is it?

hapeeee fatz.

joe.ces.wil.solo.pae.karen.kati.gox.

*I MISS U ..

apol.ivory.rea.gigs.riel.kat.jeanine.ap-ap.

*my fans, i dont miss u guys.haha!!

loving mapuans

2007-02-17T23:21:00.000-08:00

**sundays r made for family*

**kabilak nah..
**pag tanggal ng puting buhok 101..
**dyaryo.
**pimplessssss..
**love roller coaster.
**generation..
**panget nila.haha!
**lagot umiyak!
**anu yan?

***SABADO sa skul..

**nobelista.
**tinatamad akong mag lecture kya pinichuran ko nlang.haha!
**I WANT MILO ICE CREAM!
**malayo ang tingin..
**joe...hehe!

****NSTP TIME>

**us agen
**sa cr..

**northern girls.

**NUNG FRIDAY..
**love this. the BEST

**kulettttttttt..
**kiss!
**tomboy! haha..

*****NSTP DIN Toh..

**ulet..
**u dont know this apol.haha!! behlat..

haha..

foroshop ko

2007-02-17T22:58:00.000-08:00

**xiay..sarap pag tripan.haha!! peace=)
**love this place.
*bagong gicng.
**love this.
**pang comix toh ah.=)
*c tut.
*8masku 4vr.
*agen.
**nag-mamag nko.=)

**love the efek.
**wid jesusa kho pineda.
**mapua shirt.
**gago ito na oh chad! haha
**pike.pike.pike.

*--,

update..

2007-02-17T22:53:00.000-08:00

Thursday night: I made my psych term paper, nkakaloko dahil ang dami kong tinype and yet diparin ako natapos so…kaya di ako nakakapag-blog..

Friday morning: Di ako pumasok ng anal geom. Class ko and half period lang ako sa Filipino kc tinapos ko pa ung buct na paper ko for psych.. tpos parang di man lang binasa ng prof ko yung ginawa ko, eer,, nkakainis kya yun..anyways at least I did my part. Enough nay un.

COMMERCIAL: He didn’t text nor call. T_T

Anyways, upon observation na realize ko na ngayon ko lang tlga na-eenjoy yung life ko as a college student, sure a lot of work..pressures and all the stuffs pero ang galling lang kase alam ko na I’m doing all these things because I wanted to bsta alam ko na galling sa heart ko tlga yung efforts na ginagawa ko. Bsta yun.haha.

Oh tpos..

Friday after class habang nag-lalakad sa underpass with ivory, we saw noel.. imagine 3 ang pasok nia tpos quarter to 4 na yun at papasok plang xa. Nku bomba tlga yun lalaking yun sbi ni dadate nia kme..TOO MUCH ALLIBY.

Yun ivory and I went to g4 to buy the summit books that we’re dying to have. She bought the stolen magic thingy while I decided to buy the vince’s life then we looked for sneaks and flops..(CES, yung flipflops mo?!).. grabeh I love the addidas’ ms. Piggy design..bsta ang cute kaso its not a good purchase sobrang mahal.haha. para kaming ewan, may mall show pla yung muvi ni sam, zanjoe and toni.. tpos un..haha. para kaming ewan, inabangan tlga namen na dumating c…

ZANJOE.

Pero c sam yung dumaan,. Grbeh, starstruckd kme. It sounds so cheap pero a lot pipol in the mall got really thrilled. I evn videoed him kaso mang-mang ako sa technology so di ko lam panu i-upload ditto sa blog ko.haha.bsta pipol are screaming and so we do TOO. Haha. Yun after that we waited for zanjoe, naku after 200 years wla pa xa so un we dcided to eat our dinner nlang.. and omigosh..

We saw DION IGNACIO.

Okay, I sound so cheap again.haha. pero he was realy drop dead gorgeous, pero this time di nkme sumigaw at nag-bana banana.haha. he’s so bango. I bet that was 212.hehe. and guess wat, he rily looks like noel. Yeah bah. Pero c noel ang pinapanget na version ni dion.haha.

Hopefully di nia mbasa toh. Oh wait y do I kip on mentioning noel hir?

Hmm,..watelse? ah..yun grbeh yung laugh trip kc bsta, tpos nung nag aabang nko ng taxi para akong ewan kc habang nag papara ako ng taxi may ksama pang weird na sound frommy mouth.haha.grbeh. long day that was.

Ang saya lang.hehe.
Yi.. long test na sa anal geom. On Monday at guess wat wla pa akong assignment ..
Its not that tinatamad ako.pero bsta nkakabusit. Im not even sure kung papasa kme kay prof. domingo. Hell, ayaw ko ng mag ka bagsak. Oh GOD pls.

Change topic.

Na-realize ko na ang dami ko tlgang dapat lakarin.

First, passport ko.yahu HK hir I come..
How can I secure one for myself?

Second, license ko..
17 na ako at pwede na akong non-pro.haha.

third, yung mga requiremts ko. Actually ayw ko tlgang pa-pressure with skul stuffs kaso I cant rily deny the fact na sa march 12 start na ng finals. Ohmigosh.

Fourth yung resort reservation para sa outing ng block namen.hai..

And the list goes on..

Okay fatz..RLAX.DONT PANIC.

…BTW, na realize ko na there’s a part of me na malungkot. Uhm hirs the scenario..

last Sunday my brother asked me to secure a passport, sama daw ako sa HK for vacation.. eh di happy tpos bsta nag-usap ung nanay ko saka c kua ko.. nabanggit ni kua na 2 to 3 yirs from now, migrate na sila sa Canada.. na-sad naman ako kc parang na-visualize ko lng yung life without them. I mean napaka-small lng ng family namen tpos mababwasan pa kme.. okay I understand the fact na may sariling family na ang kuya ko and he only wants the best for his family..pero yun..nalungkot lang ako.. sana bumagal muna ang takbo ng panahon kc I cant imagine life without them.

…tpos nung mon. pag-uwi ko sa apartment I asked my ate kung kalian sya lilipat ng work tpos bigla niang sinbabi na hindi na daw xa lilipat.. the I asked why tpos she just gve me a smile.. the I asked kung may plano ba xa to migrate..tpos sbi nia oo..nasa process na daw yung pag aayos ng papers yung bf nia tpos kpag naka alis na yung bf nia, she’ll follow,

nung cnabi nia yun..na-blanko ako.
Ganyan ka close ang relationship namen sa isat isa kaya im very much worried kc im used to the idea na complit ang family ko. And if aalis na yung mga kapatid ko..kami nlang tatlo ng nanay at tatay ko. Tpos sa manila pa akonag aaral. Hindi ko lng tlga ma visualize yung scenario ng family ko in the future.. okay I understand na may mga sari-sariling buhay na ang mga kapatid ko pero sna.. sna.. hindi lhat iiwan yung responsibilities sken.. tumatanda na ang parents ko and unti-unti their health is starting to deteriorate. Im afraid. Im afraid. Hindi sa ayaw kong mag alaga ng magulang…actually if the situation calls at kailangan kong i-gve up lhat just for my parents..

Gagawin ko..
Because I know yun lang yung way na masusuklian ko lhat ng ginawa nila.
I will give up everything if the situation calls for it.

Siguro bothers lng tlga. Ang dami ko kseng fears sa buhay lalo na in terms of family. Nakakalungkot lng kc sobrang msaya at contented na ako with the way things are sa family ko.

Im afraid of changes.
Im afraid.
Baka hindi ko kaya..
=(

COMMERCIAL: panalo GINEBRA.
2-2 na.. haha..game 6 manonood tlga ako.haha!!
Pero feel ko pinag bigyan lang ng san Miguel ang ginebra.hai..,
Im still hoping na manalo sila.

SATURDAY:

Sobrang aga ko nagising kht 12 pa pasok ko, gumawa ako ng assign sa anal geom…unfortunately di parin ako tpos. Then NSTP class, leader kme ni kat kya taga edit lang km eng mga questions.haha. tpos un pichuran kme ni apol..haha. wats new, uhmmm..naiinis ako dun sa classmate ko sa nstp, masyado xa mapapel..eeerr..

After nstp..tumambay kme sa lapit sa cantin and I saw Erwin james Villanueva. Oh GOD. He smiled at me. Rily!!!!! Apol and kat saw his flashing smile. Waaah, pwede na akong mamatay. He’s just sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

*charming.

After that I had my tutor session with sir deo, as always galit nanaman xa sken dahil late ako..dahil tamad daw ako..hai putang bakla na iyon, kung di lang xa marunong mag-turo lumayas na ako sa puder nia eh.hehe. grabeh ang dame plan g tetest namen sa mon. huhu.

Ellipse.
Parabola.
Hyperbola.
Applications pa.

Oh god.help.

Nakaka loko, lagi pa naman akong absent sa anal geom., this wik once lang akong pumasok.nkakatamad kc saka bsta ayaw kong mkita si sir domingo,(maniac.)

After tutor nag punta nko ng terminal. As always k.o. ako sa bus. Tumulo nanaman yung laway ko habang natutulog.hehe. tpos Kenneth picked me up then we had dinner sa rumpa. Ang sarap. Sobra.=)

As always we never ran out of stories to share. I just appreciate the trust. The friendship. The sweetness. Ang sarap ng may boy-best-bud.

After that hinatid nia ko sa bahay then I had dinner again with my folks. Tpos yun tinutukso nila ako dun sa flowers ko.. err.i hate it.haha.

Yun tapos tinype ko na yung mga questions sa nstp namen.buct tlga, ang dami.T_T then I was up til 3, nag fofoto shop ako. Grbeh im addicted to it.hehe.

SUNDAY:

Family day.,,
=)

+gosh, im still broke+

sana mamayang gabi hindi ako maka tulog kc di pa tpos assign ko sa anal geom. Tpos di pa rin ako nkakapag rebyu.. I badly nid to pass.

*Erwin james Villanueva-im in love with u*
=)

COMMERCIAL: no text. No call. You’re gone. (I think)
I always say this to you..im sick and tired of being tricked.

*ciao.

PUTA GINEBRA WILL WIN

2007-02-14T22:52:00.000-08:00

GINEBRA til death.

WINNING MOMENT LAST NIGHT:

***after 10, 000 years..nanalo din ang GINEBRA lst nyt. tnx to eric menk! yahu.

1-2 nah.. s*%#! SAN MIGUEL,....ginebra still rocks..beh=)

GAME 3: FEB 14, 2007

GINEBRA 131

SAN MIGUEL 101

valentines at mcdo with trusted friends

2007-02-14T22:41:00.000-08:00

_____STOLEN____

**cge kain!
**cleavage!!haha..
**poink couple..
**THANK YOU SA FLOWERS(san mo nhanap ang orange na rose?)
**poor ate, mas malake ang flowers ko!behlat!
**us**
**us*
**putek na cocoa bar na yan! ANG PAET!
**antok kna MOA? (oi sbi mo treat mo ko ngayun?lang ya..nagtago ka nanaman!)
**fellow SEXy..hehe!!

***TNX agen.cnt wait .=)

more of US

2007-02-14T22:28:00.000-08:00

MORE

*i miss my eye glasses.=)
**gnyan ka relax ang buhay namen sa rizal subject. kita kht may nag-rereport sa harap, may epal na umaamoy na armpit nia.haha!
*i mis MASKU
**magtanggal ng split ends sa corridor.
**hunt the cutest varsity player..=)
**mag pichuran..
**fool around and get caught.
*click.
**=)

*ito ang grabeh magtanggal ng splitends,wlang patawad!
**kumaen..
**mag pa kyut uli..
*lamon kung lamon/.
**scribble the name of the person that u miss the most and play with ur eyeshadow.haha!

behind us

2007-02-14T22:08:00.000-08:00

**just trippin.

**ui gutom.haha!
**astig ng pic na to..tinitignan ko silang dalwa oh.haha!
**putek pati sa matlab di pinatawad.
**PAMELA CUEVAS DIZON-ma tats ka, evryday dala ko to!=)
**smile in vain.
**US**
**rea, MUMU!!
**blue day kat.
**ice crim day.
**yummy ba?

**wid jhaey_si..eer,haha!!
**tired&sleepy us.
**tulo MILO! messy.
**hart.
**LOVE.

-ang sarap mag aral kc may baon.haha!!

SCENE STEALER IN SCHOOL.

2007-02-14T21:54:00.000-08:00

**MGA sari-saring reaksyon.haha!

*JEANINE: bhla ka jan. mag ttxt nlng ako.
**KAT: oh tlga? wow.(banang bana)
**APOL: rily? agrees..
**CHAVA: teka ang baho..may umutot?
*REA: shoo.. chupi!

**ISANG ARAW NG SIYA'y MASIRAAN NG KONTI.haha!!

Natasha Aubrey Cardinal

take 1.
trying to impersonate pikeh hir.haha!
**take 3.
**kis rea!!!

--sna matuloy yung zambales outing ng block nten. fingers crossed guys! =)

2007-02-14T21:48:00.000-08:00

**A LOVE TO LAST..

--this goes for you girl..

*ui same shirt pa.haha!
**retro kuno,.
**love it.stolen.=)

**A-LOVE-TO-LAST.

--tashing--ang sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet nia!!

i saw u in pain. i saw how many guys tried to play ur hart. im just glad dat ur hapi now. i know this wil last.

love u girl.=)

sabi ko hindi muna ako magbloblog. im addicted. huhu

2007-02-14T21:41:00.000-08:00

**ANG TAPSILOG-BOW.

ang tapsilogan sa kanto namen.haha.

**wiwit ung pwet ni ate tapsilog..haha!!

**nkaka-adik toh.swear!

wid ces nd kayz

2007-02-13T01:38:00.000-08:00

**take note nstp class lang nia, nag-kulot pa xa.haha.
**kir birss..
**family ni ces!
***pa-epal.haha
**kyutttttttttttttttt...
**wee..ang cute tlga.haha

**ces' life.haha
**cge..cge..
**wlang sawa!
**ang cute nito, parang may meeting ang mga bears with ces.haha!
***moral support c blue bir..

***=)

if pipol judge u.FUCK. i dont give a damn.
damn it. trying hard.losers.

2007-02-12T02:07:00.000-08:00

**ang gwapo ng kua ni noel.waaah!! waah..

-meet erwin james villanueva..

*&%$#@@!!!!

**&^%*$@!@#..

**look closely: ung may hawak ng spoon si kua un.. tpos ung naka-jacket na mukhang ewan c noel un.haha.

**huuu..^^,

__STRESSED!!!!!!

*analysis for table tennis!

*fotocopy fil buk!

*test sa fil on wed. argh! putek na pen names.

*sangkatutak na anal geom assign! eerrr..

*anal geom test on fri. hyperbola...curves...elipse!!! oh hinde!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

**midterms sa rizal..

**story telling contest on wed. argh. ayaw ko kc eh..T_T

**portfolio sa rizal..

**filmshowing ng psych..argh!

*report cslec.bring laptop.argh! tpos test.

...hay nkaka loko ang buhay pag-aaral,nkakabuct.pero masaya kc hapi.bomba.

2007-02-12T01:29:00.000-08:00

***top pix..=)

feb407/

-hapi.-

**bobo ang kumukuha nito.haha. obyusly ako un.haha.
**show some love.haha!
*8ganda ng background oh? sunset.
**blak party.haha.
**mga gagu.
**class pic daw toh sbi ni cesc.haha.
**mother.father.sister.kiko.haha.
**ui..
**love dem ol.

**hanapin nio ang cell ko.haha.

**multo sa liwanag.
**love.love.love.
**show some love agen.haha. **xiay.gagu.love u!
*8sisters love :)

-_-

2007-02-12T01:27:00.000-08:00

wah atlast na access ko rin ang buct na accoun na toh. hell. buct.

**hapi me./

2007-02-06T02:02:00.000-08:00

**i miss klie..ahh!!

-_-
**yani&tash!!
**wid yani&tash..puyat oh..haah!!
**wid apol!! i love dis gal so much!!-slmat pla sa fotocopy knina,mua=)
**nice nails. haha.pati c spongebob di pinatawad!
**wid mj. i miss this girl.=(

**prity~!
**wid cc.aw!!
*wid klie. pawisan dito ah.haha
**pagod na: klie.xiay.me

**tnx for the cake -pecs.

**singing bday girl.
**ui, bgay.
**bading!!haha.
**wiwit.boobs!

**wid kiko&yui!!

**SWEET.
**take 1!
**anu toh dugo?
**behlat!

**sweet!!

-love dis kidss.

**nice shirt. (tnx apol&kat.
**IM NOT TALKING!
**shock?
**agen.haha.
**date with myself at xocolat.

**at araneta. GO GINEBRA!
**yummy.
**wee.
**sa day ng bday ko, nag-aral lng ako ng ANAL GEOM. BUCT!!

**my bestfriends.haha

**mabana.

*wiwit.haha.
**..
**love it.
**ito ule.
**handa ko nung bday ko sa apartment.haha

==sopas.tuna.pancit.cake.sunog na kanin.tubig.haha!!

masaya na ako. enough of the depression-anger-insecurity-lonely stage of my life. my friends did

help a lot. A LOT. im so happy.(we both know why).

ive learned a lot for the past few days. cguru nga ako yung mali kaya ako nag-suffer,bsta what is

really importantnow is that okay nko. its true bago ka maka-get over with someone kailangan mong

makahanap ng kapalit. i didnt force myself naman eh, i know na galing na din sken yung decision.

cguru ganyan lang tlga ang ikot ng buhay.db.=) bsta okay ang family k, okay ang acads ko, okay ang

frens, okay kme..okay ako kay GOD. i think thats enuf para masabi k na sobrang palad ko na.gone are

the days na i want to disappear bcoz of problems in life. pag-subok lang pla lhat and im glad-im over

with it.ang galing tlga ni GOD-he knows how to comfort me when im in trouble.=)

masaya tlga.sobrang saya kaso teka inaantok nko.
*TOM-MIDTERMS SA FIL102 & RIZAL* uh-oh.

ciao.bsta i love masku.i love ivory-kat-apol-grace-rea-ren-danilo-yani-tasha-arjin-moa-kezia-ap-

gigs-abcd-willord-beth-jeanine..lhay na!!. i love augustinians. i love mama. i love tatang. i love ate

jo,rose&neri. i love kua mat,yum&russ. i love kiko&yui. i love keechee. i love kenneth-an-kikz. i

love GOD. & im starting to really *love* u.=)

bday ko.

2007-02-05T02:17:00.000-08:00

sobrang tns last nyt my dear frens.=)

some moments captured:

**mags, bansot ka parin ok?haha.
**wiwit. japi & klie. eee.. klie..=) haha!
**loser!! we won = we won!!! pulube PAE&CES!
**ui..kabuldit!
**something so eewwee! haha. pawisan!
**have some considerations. they're out of their minds.haha!
**adik sa pichur!! love u fellas.
**wiwit ule!! model kuno neh xiay??

*alis taya? haha.

**alice&me.love u alice.
**something touchy hir.

*katulong daw at ang boy!!!

-hahaha--

*tired?..hungry?
**bt ang hilig ko sa ganitong mukha.?haha.
**love this girls except ung tumalikod. pulube un eh.
**aw. love this pix. grown ups. ui ces bgay kau ni cub oh/ tpos bgay kme ni bang? haha. jox.

WORK OF TIMO!!!!!!!!!!

-o masaya kana nian timo?haha.

----fatima reina rivera natividad.
-----klie jennel liwanag david.

-_-

happeee,,,=)

2007-02-02T02:34:00.000-08:00

**pike.tashing.aku.
**kat.apol.aku.
**noel.
**kill him.
*me&kat.
*patay&me.
**tee.
**campus.
**wid anver!
**tashing.bangag aku dito ah?

**ui tash, c co oh!
**h...bra?
**charmed.
**cla lang lalaki sa buhay ko.
**eat dem.